all i want for christmas

The song “All I Want for Christmas Is You” has never had more meaning in my life than now. Last week, I reached out to a guy that I messed things up with almost 2 years ago. He told me he didn’t want to reconnect, but I know that he still thinks about me (the evidence for which would be too extensive to list out here). But at the same time, I know I really hurt him and he didn’t deserve that. And now, every night, I find myself asking a god I don’t even know if I believe in for this guy to come back and give me a second chance. Everything was easy with him, I think that means something. I just didn’t realize it back then.