you’re the ali larter

I've been in a very emotionally charged relationship with a married man (I know, I'm not proud of it) for nearly three years. We would talk on the phone multiple times a day before the quarantine and see each other often, even if it was just to grab coffee. My heart hurts that I don't get to see him or hear him as often, but this situation is shining a light on the fact that I want and deserve a partner who will commit 100% to me. He's my best friend and I would absolutely love this time living together in a parallel universe, but sadly I've never felt as alone as I do now. I'm never doing this again. I deserve love and commitment - a true partnership ALL of the time, not just part time.