my super ego
Feeling annoyingly superior about "how well" I'm handling compared to other people, mostly my parents. My ego is such a bitch it's ridiculous.
trial by fire
One day before DC declared a city-wide emergency and closed all businesses, I decided I should sleep with my hook up buddy one last time. Maybe it was the the world burning around us, but we had the best time yet. After months of thinking I had zero feelings for this man, turns out it took the apocalypse to make me feel otherwise.
After four hours of hanging out and having a grand old time, we said good-bye thinking maybe we could keep this going before things get super serious. I texted him letting him know I was down if he was. Little response was given, but it was okay I was still running off the high of great evening together.
Turns out, this was just the optimal time to ghost me. I guess our magical connection on Thursday was just the pre-pandemic feels. Looks like no quarantine sex for me!
i don't know how to get through this
I honestly just need to unload this: I live with my twin brother, my father, my step-mother and her 4-year-old son. I have been planning and saving up to move out for some time now, there is still a long time to go. The reason being... my family is unbearable. My brother is a prick who cannot control his temper, my father is grouchy and constantly nagging. My brother and I don't have a good relationship with my terrible step-mother, and her son is constantly screaming, actually, everyone is constantly screaming at each other; being stuck in a house together have not helped. Because of covid-19 my school is closed and I was fired from my job, so it's going to be real hard getting out of here. Not to mention I am getting back surgery in a couple of weeks and i can't get to the preparation appointments, so that is probably going to get postponed.
I don't know how to get through this.
getting (sleep)over it
I have been dating a divorced single Dad for over a year. We see each other several times a week, spend holidays with his family and have Sunday dinners....we do not live together....I think I just got dumped over text in the most indirect way possible....we can't see each other because he has told his 17 year old child they can't have sleep overs....to be clear I work from home and am not in contact with anyone to get the virus or be at risk and have been driving to his house to cook meals. I guess that's all over with now. Wowza kind of in shock...but I suppose it is good to know how little he really had invested in the relationship now instead of later.
night of the walking dead
So I am currently quarantining with my boyfriend, my best friend and her boyfriend (we all live together)! It’s been almost a week and we’re all in the hospitality industry so NONE of us is working from home.
Yesterday in the late afternoon me and my boyfriend got into a huge argument about what show to start watching. I said “Hey why don’t we start the walking dead from season one? It’s 9 seasons so we have a bunch of episodes to look forward to” . I regret it immediately. We very quickly got into this back and forth of how he doesn’t wanna start from the beginning, but I do cause I don’t remember much, leading to him insisting my memory is bad and my crying that that’s not fair. Problem is, my effort to storm out only got me from my bedroom to the living room. Eventually we both looked at eachother and agreed this is by far the stupidest argument we’ve had in the 6 years we are together but honestly I know that THERE WILL BE MORE. Good luck to all of us I guess! This too shall pass (?)!
stir crazy
Messy and love drama? TELL ME ABOUT IT. I live at home with two unstable parents who are about to get divorced and my 18 year old brother. I spend majority of my time at my boyfriends house because of how ridiculous things are at home and he’s driving me CRAZY. He is so lazy he just eats and sleeps and plays video games all day. I literally almost broke up with him because I was hormonal and BORED. It’s like being under quarantine is making me batshit (more so than usual) and its only been like two weeks !! I have no job currently because it closed down, and same with him. Luckily I work for a company that pays us for “catastrophe pay” but he doesn’t. He’s so used to being lazy now that he won’t even call unemployment! What the hell! He wont be able to pay rent if he doesn’t do this unemployment shit. He is driving me absolutely mad. What am I supposed to do? What does anyone do when we’re supposed to be at home all day? HE IS SO BORING. Like let’s play cards, lets paint, let’s get drunk and write a song- he’s a musician for fucks sake. This was a nice little rant I’m glad you like messy drama I needed this
going this alone
My husband fell off the wagon just before the virus and stopped taking his medication at the same time. I've been at home, alone for the past two weeks while he is off drinking with random strangers. At first the virus was fake, then it was an overblown symptom of my anxiety disorder, and finally now it's real but he doesn't care that so many people may die. He thinks I'm over-reacting and belittles me while he eats all the groceries that he did not pay for. He has not contributed one cent to our stock pile the entire time and feels like this is my responsibility since I'm the one that is so worried. I feel that I would be safer and better taken care of on my own.
straight from the kelly’s mouth
Two nights ago, it was raining in Brooklyn. At 3 am my boyfriend turns to me, terrified, from his laptop. He locks eyes with me and says “the virus travels in rain drops”. I was trying not to laugh because I know he’s nervous, so I stifle my giggles and say what is your source? That’s when he started bursting out laughing because he realized he was on a random ladies blog called “Kelly Says”. Finally laughing together about his sometimes suffocating paranoia was a relief we needed in this apartment.
tuesday, tuesday, so good to me
My boyfriend and I have been together for almost one year. Two days ago, we were standing out in the rain saying goodnight and he told me “the rest of the world may be falling apart, but I have you, and that’s more than enough.” I was so grateful that being cooped up together was making us stronger.
Today he called me first thing this morning and said he can’t see me. He needs time to work on himself and asked me not to text or call or communicate at all with him until at least Tuesday.
So now the world is falling apart, and so are we. I don’t know what to do. I lost the one good thing I had in the midst of this virus.
lovesick
And I thought dating in the normal world was confusing...
One night of drinks to catch up with a guy I was seeing months ago has accidentally turned into me quarantining with him and his housemates for a week as the city started to shut down. His friends are calling me his girlfriend (again) which is definitely not where we are (yet), but this quarantine has definitely sped things along. We had conversations about easing back into things and taking things slowly, but we’ve went from not talking for “x” amount of months to essentially living together. I know where all his clean dishes go, I’ve tidied the bathroom, we cook dinner together, I’ve watered his plants, we did the laundry. He told me he fell in love with me—does that mean he still is? After spending days on the couch binging television together, things are feeling decidedly relationship-y again. But he’s not my boyfriend... I think? But I want him to be? I think? This quarantine is either going to result in me being single/lonely as hell or with me in a loving relationship with the man I know I want to marry one day. Let’s hope when this bubble pops it’s the latter.
very conscious and very uncoupled
Like some others, I’ve been living in the same house with my ex (married young, 10 years ago ) pre-quarantine, mostly peacefully. I’m saving for a place, we have two young kids. I was managing by keeping my distance, dating, and trying not to be home when he was. Now we are stuck here and I am working from my bedroom while we share parent duties. The first day of the Bay Area lockdown he had already told me he hated me. We have opposite personalities. I’m glad we are already broken up because this whole situation would have caused us to. I’m trying to stay happy but I wish I was anywhere but here.
a bug’s strife
I'm actually currently self-isolating alone but it's going spectacularly (except for an upsetting incident with an ant this morning which I will explain). I'm reading more, cooking food I otherwise wouldn't, and going to bed/waking up earlier. As for the ant incident: I saw a pretty large ant on my wall today as I was finishing my lunch--chicken, vegetables and rice. I decided to try to move the ant with a piece of paper to my windowsill so it would be freed from my apartment. The ant did not want to stay on the piece of paper and decided it would take its chances by jumping off the paper straight into my rice cooker (empty, but still extremely hot). I screamed "NO!!!" as Mr. Ant fell and landed smack dab in the middle of this sizzling pan. I saw him squirm and writhe in what I assume was the pain of him cooking internally, and quickly scooped him back up. I then transferred him to my flowerbox on my windowsill while cursing the ant and praying that he lived a long and happy life after this, likely life-changing, incident. I've been feeling inconsolably guilty since this happened. If I see Mr. Ant again, I will feed him some crumbled up bread and send him on his way.
growing up and staying home
Being quarantined here is beyond insanity because living with my boyfriend and his sister is a massive nightmare. I thought I'd seen the worst just by seeing her for more than 10min at a time on the weekend but boy was I wrong. She's a stay at home freeloader and somehow manages to fill our day with complaints about how unfair life is because she can't go out to buy things she wants with others money (she's in her 20's btw). If I have to hear her yelling out stupidity one more day I'm going to lose it.. what's worse is my bf wants me to take the high road rather than tell her to STFU even though he can't stand her either! For now I'll stick to passive aggressive comments lol maybe she'll get the idea to grow tf up already.
snap judgement
Snap Map emotionally devastates me. My significant other and I split up (amicably) not long ago because he said he needed to be alone and "focus on himself". We agreed we'd remain friends. Once social distancing started his Snapchat location showed him at a woman's house, for four days straight. They met right before he and I split so now I'm wondering? I finally asked about catching up a few days ago and he replied that he had just left town. Our university permanently canceled classes that evening. I will probably never see him again. I can't tell if I'm more hurt by the possibility that he left me for someone he met a week before we split, or if I'm more hurt that he's made no effort to keep in touch like we said we would. I think the keeping in touch.
eat hot snick and lie
the only things I have done the last 3 days are read, do puzzles, get sunburnt, run for copious amounts of time, and eat snickers - i miss high school - and they canceled sports, this is Armageddon
hairbrained
I have been social distancing for most of my life. I am good at this. But I do also love fresh air, so I often take walks around my posh suburban neighborhood and I likely wont discontinue these SOLO walks. Yesterday, two days after a call to practice social distancing, I walked through a park, getting my fresh air and some cardio. There, I spied an entire child's baseball team and their parents about to scarf down 6 pizzas that one of the mom's was balancing as she walked back through the park from her car. I didn't shame them or yell at them, but I secretly hoped that there were ball hairs on their pizzas.
my so-called life
I am a first year in uni and in September I met this amazing guy. We were just starting to get closer and now I probably won't see him for 6 months and it is making me miserable. Meanwhile I am quarantined waiting for my test results and can't even spend time with my family because I am not allowed outside of my room in order to not infect them. I officially hate my life
preaching to the choir
I'm quarantined with my girlfriend and my sister... everything's fine except that my sister won't stop singing church music.
spouses without borders
A few weeks ago, I traveled to Spain to pick up my kids from my ex-husband‘s vacation home. They are four and six years old so they cannot fly alone. When I got there, the borders closed so I was stuck in my ex-husband’s home with my kids, my boyfriend, and my ex-husband‘s new wife. My ex-husband traveled to America for work and cannot back get back into the country. it is getting super claustrophobic here and I cannot afford a hotel right now nor do I want to leave the house because so many people are sick here. I cannot stand my ex-husband‘s new wife and things are getting tense with my boyfriend. If I have to stay in this house another day, I’ll end up fighting my ex-husband‘s new wife. Please open the borders, Spain!